Today, I have proposed a guy that I have been eyeing for years; since college. Back then, I have no gut to say hi to him. Through the times I keep cherish him, from degree until he fled to oversea for further study. But still, I idle from his sight.
After many years passes, I want to make a move since he in stable condition now; already work and may be ready to have a loved one. Then I proposed. I ask him directly but unfortunately, he rejecting me. He already has seen another woman. He said he did not want to gives a false hope.
Oh, dear heart, you are so strong for many years by hiding your feeling. I supposed to cry and feel broken but I am not. I accepted his answer and I respected his decision. He gives me such a good reply. I never got a rejection with a beautiful feeling like this. What a weird. haha. I think I got the warmest rejection today! He said a good woman for a good man. I know, I have listened to this so many times, but the feeling is different when I got from him.
If along the time Allah keep him single (as what I know), then why not for the next few years? Yes, I should not think like that but if it really happens, after I got a job, have a stable financial state and get money to marry a man, I will ask him again. Yes, I will, because we already become a friend now. I am no more idle from his sight. What a positive thought!
But it just a dream and the possibility only happens through His hand. I believe that not all things that we like are good for us. Maybe he is not the one for me for this time or maybe he will never be mine. I also believe Allah always knows best and He is the best planner. May Allah love you and protect you from any misfortune my dear old crush. May you have a good life and I will always cheer for you the same as before.
Alhamdulillah. I feel so grateful because You let me meet with this good guy. I have no regret when decided to make a move after waiting for many years.